Please, im lonely....?

I havent been ok lately. I know everyone has mood swings but every single day when i come home it hits me how lonely i am. im really close with my friends but that doesnt seem to be the solution. it also may be related to the fact that for the first time in many years im not pursuing any guys. in the past those situations havent worked out for me and as of now theres no one that catches my interest. This is supposed to be a good thing though because im supposed to be focusing on myself etc. but honestly without that silly bit of hope i need so badly theres nothing else motivating me. im so apathetic to everything. i crave intimacy because i feel so detached from everything else.